It has been a few weeks since I last wrote as I felt a strong pull to retreat, so that I could spend some much needed time for myself. For me, July was a month where the energy was continuously shifting. Did you feel this too?
It felt like the ground was constantly moving, unstable beneath my feet.
I believe that these energy shifts come to us when we are ready for change, for the next step, for something new to come into our lives. But, it is not without its challenges.
And so, the month began with emotional highs and lows that brought up resistance, discomfort and unease.
I had just turned 30. And so for the first half of July, I found myself coming to terms with this "pivotal point" in my life. And to my surprise, there was so much fear that kept coming up - the fear that I had not achieved the things that 30 year olds "should" have done. Even though, intuitively, I knew that I was on the right path, I still felt pressured to be part of these societal expectations.
However, this time, I made the decision to sit with this resistance in order to let it go and to move forward. I wanted to observe its presence without judgement. And so, I spent the next 6 weeks dosing up on self love and being so kind to myself.
And gradually, with time, my discomfort simmered down. To me, it's like what happens after a downpour of rain. The glow of the sun slowly dries up the ground, revealing something better beyond the horizon. And I am feeling this little buzz of energy, of lightness, of expansiveness returning to me.
For the last month, by listening closely to my intuition, I have been focusing on the act of letting go. Up until July, I had been tightening my grip on all areas of my life, trying to control the outcome. It was as if I was trying to stop time in a way by holding onto all the things that were currently in my life at that moment. I was afraid to let them go completely.
The interesting thing was, once I started to release my grip, I realised that energetically, emotionally and physically, space was created to welcome in better things. Read More